Gym Daddies and Porn Stars

After a few days of sulking and self loathing, I finally decided to get my ass to the gym yesterday. I'm glad I did. After a few minutes of working out, I discovered (much to my surprise) that I hadn't lost as much muscle as I'd thought. I was able to lift close to what I used to. That gave me the motivation I needed and I enjoyed the rest of the workout. I also felt clear headed and hyper when I got home. It was great. I think I'm hooked again.

The gym wasn't as bad as I'd originally thought either. I began to see a few more familiar faces, not anyone I knew, but other fags I recognized from other gyms. Made me feel better that the place wasn't filled with testosterheterone. I also ran into this guy I knew from a few years back, when I was with Psycho. We'd always talked about getting together, but it never happened. He's a short, stocky, muscular, salt & pepper haired daddy type - just what I like - and the sexual tension was still there. That's an opportunity missed, but I can still enjoy the vibe - sometimes that's more fun than actually doing the deed, which can be a letdown. He's a very nice guy and since he doesn't live far from us, he invited Q and I over to his house for a BBQ. He has a partner, so I don't think it's a sex thing. It won't be anyways.

The funny thing is, he said he was just talking about me the other day. He was speaking with Psycho and asked how I was doing. Psycho told him that he didn't know, but that I'd bought a house with Q and we'd moved out to the east end. Word travels fast. I haven't been in the village for months and months. Gays and gossip! Gays and gossip!

Speaking of hot daddy sex, I was on my computer last night looking at porn surfing the net, when I came across a picture of someone I knew. He was a guy Psycho and I had fooled around with a few times. I see he's broadened his horizons. Still hot too. Now I can say I've had sex with a porn star, but the pictures might have been taken after the fact. Does that still count?

On the topic of porn stars, I almost had sex with another one once, and he's starred in many a film. We'd made plans to hook up a few times, but it never happened. Again, one of those older, short, stocky, muscular daddy types. I was young at the time, and could have been his "boy." Sigh. Another missed opportunity. He plays piano for a dance school by day, and gets pylons shoved up his ass at night. Well maybe not pylons, but I haven't seen many of his movies either.

Maybe I'll rent a movie tonight.